In this moment, my heart is
very opened. I have been on, and
continue to be, on a journey of not only the countries I am visiting ,
but also of the unconscious destinations of my soul.
I would like to share some
notes:
Developing
an
Unconditional Love Affair with Myself.
Whether it was when I was
teaching the "Inspiring Spirit"
(evolution of the BRETH) in Serbia, waiting hours for a plane in
Trieste or traveling with my husband, one thought kept repeating
itself. It was not new, but it was very clear:
Whatever
Occurs Is Neither the
Beginning OR the End.
It was so clear that
awakening can only be found in the moment:
To worry, or to be anxious about
the next moment will only take me out of the present.
Being
happens by accepting "What Is."
It is only when I allowed
myself the compassion to permit the
energy of the "emotion" to pierce me to the heart, and then to be
willing to keep running into the unknown territory, that I was able to
receive myself and all that is.
What do I mean by this?
What does it mean to pierce me to
the heart? This is not new information, but it must be
practiced.
1. Hear the voice of
fear....fear does not go away. It will
not give up its hold...and its insistence is to keep you separate and
in the defense.
A
very dear friend and teacher said to me:
"Fear (the ego) is waiting in the
closet
doing push ups and lifting weights
just waiting to jump out and
say:
"Gotcha".
2. My practice is to recognize that fear is present, and not to
turn away from it, but not to let it lead me.
3. I must not reject this
"emotional" experience, nor can I indulge
myself in my addictive
behavior
that believes in Fear's teaching.
4. I will accept and embrace
all of myself to feel and
explore this unknown territory.
5. This is when I ask for and
pray for help to allow myself to
embrace my fear, to hold it gently and to melt fear
with gentle
acceptance by
touching it with my love.
6. This
is the way: I change my
response to fear. I consciously, moment by moment
"Choose
Love".
What I continued to learn on
this journey of celebration is that
when I do allow myself to reach my limit, when I allow my defenses to
be penetrated (AND it does not matter what circumstances cause me to
reach "MY LIMIT"), it is in reaching this limit, by going beyond the
warnings of fear, beyond the behavior and my idealized mask self, going
beyond the disassociation and withdrawal that I can reach the doorway
that opens me to
Sanity
and the experience that
we are all "aspects of G-d."
It is in these moments that I
touch and enter into the unlimited
space of the human heart. This is what I have come to do for myself.
It is what I have chosen this life for: to
keep my heart open
in the middle of the illusion called life.
I
invite you to join me.
I offer you this
practice: Go slow. Relax.
Please find
yourself a quiet space....stretch out on the
floor....and begin to breathe.
Breathe into your
belly, into the room, into life.
Breathing in
........let go of your mind and of any
thoughts....be still.
Breathing out.....
surrender into this stillness.....this
silence.
Breathing in
.......there is no way to be.....
Breathing
out.......there is no place to go.....
Breathing
in.........letting go into the spaciousness
Breathing
out.......I am the spaciousness.
BE BLESSED, and know:
"If
you choose to
see unity through
the eyes of unconditional love, fear with its barriers, will dissolve.
We do not pray to G-d, we
pray from the consciousness of G-d."
LIVING AS GOD
Healing the Separation P. Raymond Stewart
In Grace and Joy,
Barbara
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dialogue or ask any questions please
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Spirit."